It seems that my personal life is all about
starting over. Is this just happening to me? Can anyone else relate?
I am consistent with my personal inconsistency! I start a new
exercise program, daily bible reading, commit to weekly BLOGGING, and then life
happens and it all fades away. I get caught in the whirlwind of life, and
before I know it, I am starting over again.
In my career, I set goals and keep or exceed them. Not so on a personal level. Why?
A good friend and I were talking yesterday, and she said
something that hit home. "You have to fill yourself up first - take the
first 30 minutes of each day, and do something positive just for you." She
heard this on a conference call the day before, and we both agreed that it was
a good idea in theory. Flight attendants remind us to put our oxygen
mask on first, before helping others. Our conversation was over, and I moved on
to the next thing I had to do for my day. After all, it is the end of the
quarter, and my sales numbers are not as good as they should be this week.
Never mind that I, in the two weeks
prior, exceeded my personal sales goals. But I digress...
Taking time for oneself has always sounded like a good
idea for everyone else, but for me, it seems selfish. I am constantly concerned with the care of my mom, son and husband as well as success in a
full time sales career. Reading and writing are things I desire and do just
for me -which is exactly why they get brushed off my schedule as soon as
something more important comes up. I have to be clear and mention that I,
and no one else, make the choice to eliminate these items from my schedule. Over time, I feel empty and drained. I
once again get motivated to take time for me, and the feelings of being selfish
return. I get back on the merry go round of caring for everyone else.
Normally I would have brushed past the conversation with my
dear friend, and kept on with my hectic life. Not this time. I feel like I am stopped in my tracks. I am physically and emotionally exhausted. I know this is
a wake-up call like never before.
My "ME" tank is running low. It may even be
empty. I am not feeling as energetic as I used to. I struggle with the thought
of adding another chore to my list, even if it is for me. Setting aside 30
minutes seems like a lot. A selfish lot. I ask to no one and everyone, "Is it even Godly to take time for myself?"
Enough of my rant. I am a results driven person when it
comes to career and family. It is time for me to take charge of my personal results. And, yes, I am once again starting over. Starting over for me.
Please pray for me as I begin to take time for me at the
beginning and end of each day. This time will include bible reading, writing, exercise and, yes - blogging.
I will be blogging about my writing progress at:
tammyarlene.blogspot.com
This will, one day, become my author blog.
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